great quote.

Listen. You don't have to wear a suit to demonstrate your power... but it certainly helps. funny that even drag queens realize that.

It's amazing how much you can hate someone.

El Diablo. Strikes again. I live with brez now, and today I finished work, then came back to the apt picked up his mac... looked at facebook, and found an email from his ex in his inbox. 

Alright, I could have logged off and then logged back in as myself, but we have alot of the same friends, and i wanted to see what people had written to my bro on his birthday... so i didn't. 

I fucking hate her. It blows me away how much I really hate her. She is probably the only person in the world that i would openly contemplate whacking. How sad is that? 

It's not like I think brez was doing anything suspect with her, but that doesn't even matter. I am heinous. Incredibly jealous. I try really hard to keep it together, but I think because I was maybe a bit conniving in my past dealings with guys and their sig others, i know what chicks think, thus i want to avoid any possible issues. 

Fuck. Another girl... grimy formerly had some "interaction" with brez, she was my friend, and I didn't know about anything. We were not together, so I didn't think it mattered. Then, I invited her to my bday shindig... which ended up being a surprise engagement announcement. She saw the ring, and instantly i understood that everything was not over for her. 

Her eyes glazed over with the same intense hatred that i feel for El Diablo, which made it that much easier for me to pick up... and she says... "Well, I knew that you two were dating, but no one expected it to last... we all thought you were his rebound chick." With animalistic precision, my claws were out. Fight or flight hit, and I wanted nothing less than her head in the Potomac.

I kept myself together, tried not to get catty, and remembered that people were there because they liked me... not her. A little solace in the girl world. 

In the end, it wasn't because i could picture her kissing my man... but because I knew that she still wanted to. It is because when it all comes down to the real truth of things... i love him, and for once, i really care, I'm uncharacteristically vulnerable. Frankly it bugs the shit out of me.